Work began again and students fill the desks before me. Others around me, both teachers and administrators are abuzz with the beginning of the year angst and excitement. I spent this winter holiday thinking and reassessing who I am, as a teacher and a person, and what I want out of my job. Now, let me give a little caveat, I love working with kids and with teachers, it is the "other" parts I have ire towards. And after much internal work, meditation, and writing, I entered the new semester with a plan to be positive, personable, and most importantly, non-complaining.
And then...others whom came back to school with the already knowing understanding of how this particular space is, lured me and plagued my new self. I did better than I have in other semesters, but I was not happy with the ways others were being treated and talked about and I struggled to know if I was to stay quiet or speak for those less able. I found myself upset at an administrator for how she was treating another teacher. I know that ultimately, I am responsible for my students and myself and I know for sure that if I was to speak up, I would get the angst from others, and yet, I must be a leader for those less fortunate or less able to speak, right? So how do I balance both my goals and take care to ensure the success of those on my team, those around me?
I guess what I am asking is, how do you balance your own, personal goals and needs with those whom are around you, especially those who compromise, undermine, or are abrasive towards your goals, attention, and self? What do you do when you must work with (or under) someone who is not supportive of who you are and what you want you want to achieve? How can I keep on track in a world of derailment and angst, a world in which bad news, energy, and will shroud me?
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