" Hi, Bette. Could we have coffee sometime?"

As an adult, I met Bette after her Vegas show and had an overwhelming feeling of wanting to sit and talk to her over coffee about life, love, and traversing this world, about this adventure called adulthood. Bette has done it, triumphed over this life; she has made it through the ups and downs, the self-questioning of both her gregarious self and the quiet one, and now seems to be in a place where she gets to be accepted as herself, all of her possible selves. I need to talk to her about that journey. This blog is the beginning of my coffee chat, a space for me to talk to Bette and to possibly gain some insight. So, "Hi, Bette. These are my questions and ideas, things I'd like to discuss with you someday."

Saturday, May 14, 2011

I'm a Texan, right?


I'm a Texan, a native Texan, born and bred in the great state and despite many attempts to leave, am still living here. It's a big state and I've lived in several cities and held several jobs and received several degrees, all in Texas. I dont feel a big tie to Texas, Im not even completely sure why I am still here, why circumstances keep me here. But, they have. And now, as I need to go somewhere else, to venture away, I find myself unsure and insecure about it.

My grandparents have lived all over the US and decided to end their lives in this great state where it is warm, as did my mother and dad. My dad hasn't lived anywhere else in his life and neither has my 30 year old brother. Is it some sort of blood thing? Are we destined to stay in Texas? When is something worth moving for? Should there be a reason to stay when you feel like you need to go? Is my grandma enough? Is love enough? Is a better job enough? How do you leave the only state you've known?
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